buudaz

Bit of a heavy topic, but I'm curious to know people's thoughts on euthanasia.

Tomorrow, I have an appointment to put down my dear friend and beloved pup. I have never gone through this process before. She is getting old and suffering from joint pains, a pinched disc, and severe glaucoma in both eyes. Despite being on medications to ease aches and symptoms, I can tell she is in pain or discomfort most of the time. She has started not eating much and must be carried outside to do her business (which she also looks uncomfortable doing with her back pains). She spends most of the day lying in bed.

For many years now, I have been actively avoiding animal death and suffering through the vegan lifestyle, but I feel very conflicted with euthanasia and the dynamic between death and suffering.

A few years ago, my mother went through a similar process as she was suffering from a rare illness with no cure. After years of hospitalizations and ineffective treatments, she essentially asked to be euthanized as her pains increased, and her capacity and will faded. It was a most traumatizing yet peaceful experience. Knowing she was no longer in pain and that it was what she wanted helped me make peace with it eventually, but the difference there was it was her choice. Now, I have the option to end my dog's suffering or let time pass naturally, prolonging the suffering for an uncertain amount of time with declining capacities. The ethical dilemma is eating at me. I do not want to facilitate the death of animals, yet I do not want to prolong my pup’s suffering.

Any advice or insight would be greatly appreciated. Much love, Daz.